Sunday, October 10, 2010


Since I've been pregnant I've had extra-vivid dreams.
I wake up and can not figure out what is what and what is real or not.
Last night I dreamed I was visiting my friend in the hospital. Travis texted me saying he was there and I was glad because I thought he came to pick me up.
But when I went to find him he was lying in a hospital bed, hooked up to wires and tubes. I was so surprised I started crying.
Travis started being really really mean to me and complaining about how bad he felt.
Soon the doctor came in and told me Travis probably wouldn't live.
Then I really started freaking out. I was sobbing so hard in my dream that I started sobbing in my sleep. I cried until I woke myself up and then laid in bed and cried for another 25 minutes.
Travis, who is never ever mean to me in real life, wrapped his arms around me and held me until I fell asleep again like an hour later.
Oh how I love him.
But also, I need him. I cannot survive without him. The idea of him sick or dying is the most horrible thing I can imagine.

Today is our anniversary.

Also, the part about my friend in the hospital was not fake. One of my best friends Lauren is very sick and the what the doctors are doing to help her is not working. Please keep her in your prayers.

Anyway, I don't normally post on weekends. But this seemed like a valid reason.


kaylie jean. said...

Happy Anniversary! I can't believe it's been a year already.

Also, I have those death/dying pregnant dreams ALL THE TIME. They are terrible. Mine are more about me dying, and LJ being alone, though. Either way, they are terrible.

I love you.

And I will keep Lauren in my prayers.

Chris said...

In my dreams, I am either scoring the game winner OR I totally can't skate and I flop around the ice like a squid in roller skates. This affects my whole day. Either stuck in the meagers or riding high!